I know, some people think 2021 marks the beginning of a new decade. Others, 2020. Either way, both parties aren’t wrong.
Celebrate the New Year/New Decade as you wish.
Right now, you’re either recovering from having one too many drinks or danced too hard at a house party or even at the club, from spending it with close friends or family or like me, went to a Crossover service at Church. The great thing is, you made it. You lived to see another day.
Page 1 of 366. Your social media timelines are filled with reflection posts and happy pictures of people welcoming the New Year. You contemplate whether you should follow the crowd and post one of your own or just simply continue scrolling and liking, scrolling and liking. New Year’s Resolutions swirl around in your head, becoming like a fog on a very cold winter’s morning, but you realise that there’s literally no point in having them as it’ll fizzle out by day 3. Even though 2020 is going to be your year, this one will be different. You can just feel it. And it will be.
I know it will be for me. Earlier today as the clock struck midnight (I’m not no Cinderella so I didn’t have to rush home), I smiled as I held my smartphone in the air with Instagram video at the ready to cheer in 2020, thanking God for His mercies. A few hours later, I was regretting my decision to get McDonald’s with newfound friends and Church Family, but a girl was HUNGRY and that was the only place that was open. Again, I smiled, knowing that I’m more likely to start as I mean to go on – not eating McDonald’s (maybe in like 6 months) but seeking God first, knowing I’m valued and procrastination won’t be much of a thing anymore.
33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. – Matthew 6:33
Unlike last year.
Last year, I spent it crying uncontrollably in the arms of my very close friend & sister in Christ at her house. I won’t go into detail too much, but I was inconsolable. Last year, it began with me no longer wanting to be here. That I was an inconvenience, that I was a piece of dirt on the bottom of a shoe. Last year my mental health was down the drain. I felt like I was spiralling out of control. Last year, imposter syndrome was real; convincing everyone that I was OK, that nothing was wrong. But I felt like a fraud.
Last year I made the decision that I couldn’t live like this anymore. That I couldn’t wallow in my self-pity and stay in my bed all day. I made the decision to get counselling. To invest in myself. I even booked a course of facial treatments (was amazing!). I went to 4 countries I’ve never been to before. Last year I LIVED LIFE. It was a journey. I still went through ebbs and flows and I still do. Even up until 31st December 2019.
10 And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast.
– 1 Peter 5:10
I know, just because it’s the 1st January doesn’t mean things are going to change in an instant. But they can change over time. You just have to persevere.
4 Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. – James 1:4
There will be a few knock backs, I’m very aware of that. I’m thankful that I have God, my counsellor and wise counsel to pick me up when even just a small part of me thinks I’m not good enough. This year is walking with 2020 vision (sorry, I had to get it in there), being bold and continuing to LIVE LIFE. And so can you.
Happy New Year. Happy New Decade.
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